Switch it on!!!

"Time passes even when it seems impossible, but at times it feels like forever when you are hurting"

It's okay to have hope, at least that's what keeps me going, I have hope that tomorrow it wont hurt as much as it did yesterday.

When everybody else was breaking down I was the only one standing; it did not mean I did not hurt as much as everybody did, I just figured if even if it was just for a second i switched my feelings, emotions off i would be okay, I was a couple of times I built a shell around me so nothing could bring me down; but if i made a little mistake as to let myself feel again the pain came flooding back in double measure, excruciating, piercing so sharply tearing my heart in two. It hurt even more to have to feel all of that pain combined rushing back, chasing at me for cheating time, the best way was always to keep in check and make sure that that door never opens, but even that is exhausting.

Sometimes it is okay to cry, okay to hurt, okay to break because keeping all that pain bottled up inside turns you into a bitter person. It is okay to feel no matter how much it hurts, our emotions make us human- good or bad to never loose hope. Never be afraid to feel even if it requires all that's in you, can't really spent the rest of your life hating and hurting sometimes to let go is exactly what's good for you, pain consumes you and if not careful it makes you evil even if it was not your intent.