Loving the loved (Part 2)

Previously.

Ntombi was in between letting go and seeing how far things could go, what she cherished she now was remorseful of. Though knowing full and well that this was passing she wanted to think not of what tomorrow beheld and lived that moment with no expectations.

She had always heard people saying you can't have it all, and was starting to believe it. she knew she is made of mistakes and disappointments but she also knew or believed there was a part of her, there should be a part of her worth keeping but it was no point looking at where she fell, she had to figure where she slipped. The momeries of that first night still haunted her, no matter how deep she would shovelled  them to the back of her head they still resurfaced. That was indeed a night to remember, it felt like a dream, left no fantasies unexplored, he had taken her to a far away trip she had no wish to return from,  no path untravelled it felt like heaven to her maybe to him it was just sex! maybe it did not mean anything he was just donating orgasm

He had said to her, she was different and confessed at first all he wanted was to get her under his blankets but after getting to know her he was feeling things he never knew they existed, she had unlocked a part of him that had been compressed, heaven knows to what extent a guy would go to get laid, if it is not that how come things had changed between them, how come he never called like he used to, how come those chit chats they always had till the crack of dawn were no longer, how come he never called just to check up on her?

Ntombi was the side chick, Vusi had a the main chick and he had made that no secret, but she was kinda hoping she meant, or would perhaps with time mean more way more than just being another woman. You see being a side chick is not that much of a problem because you are already used to sleeping alone, It beats crying next to a snoring husband you know for certain that is busy screwing somebody else, yes she did not have any expectations yet no girl in their right minds wants to be umakhwapheni for ever, ok maybe in the beginning you would not mind but how long will it be till you decide there's a void that will never be filled,  few years down the road she would want kids and would expect the father of her children to be there 24/7 so turning a blind eye to that would be just stupid. Although Ntombi did not expect much she was not seeing anyone but him and Vusi's main girlfriend was expecting their first child now chances of them being together were very sporadic or maybe that was the reason of his disappearance, a thousand questions resounded in her mind, but at the same time still made justifications that not even herself understood,  he had perhaps made his decision and he had chosen to be committed to the mother of his first child, maybe that's why he no longer had time for Ntombi he obviosly had reasons justifying his wane but was it really? one can never be too busy for a fews econds phone call to just greet the person they claiming has brought glitz and shimmery to their existance it puzzeled Ntombi but over and above worried her, she would have wished for at least a decent good bye if he had decided to call it quits, a thought of him leaving left her weak, she had no say in any of what was happening she could only hope "till they meet again"